So yeah. Despite my past feelings about xanga, today I realized the true awesome-ness of deviantART. I can post pictures and such, which is truely awesome. I've decided to make this my primary journal and just put links on my Xanga to send people here... how evil is that????

Today should be pretty nice though. I get Confirmed into the Roman Catholic Church today. I'm not too excited about it because I'm not really doing it for me. I'm getting confirmed because it will make so many more people happy and I, generally, put other people's happiness ahead of my own.

I'm really starting to question who I am, and what I've turned into. I lie to myself and try to be happy with where I am in life, but it only seems like I'm clinging onto a few happy moments and pretending like my entire life is comprised of them. I'm not really original and I just follow what everybody else wants. Why can't I just be me? Why am I so worried about other people? This is my constant drone, my never ending, recurrent questions. I guess I could be even more unoriginal and say, "Welcome to my life," then start playing that sappy song by Simple Plan, but I won't.

This is me. Take it or leave it....

"If you're not happy with yourself, nothing else matters."

Out.